I can’t tell you what exactly is going to be of me
I can’t tell if am gwein make it, or if I will cease
This is so hard, so confusing, that it’s all a mess,
But with the lesson of this heart break, somehow I can tell…

That I might change pretty much, become my opposite,
I could become the man that you want me to be,
And change my points of view you could think of on life
And be the family man you always dreamed and wished

I’d sing those boring lovesongs those I hate for me
I’d even fix my issues that I still don’t fix,
But as the change is comming I can tell for sure
My love for you’d be gone, for you belittled me.

Don’t need to change that much, babe, I can tell you that
Don’t even need my night to end, or walk that far
A man did chase affection walking on his knees,
But couldn’t fit the roll you wanted me to keep

The clothes you want for me to wear are way too tight
Therefore the ones I wished for you are wide and hang
We better keep our nakedness, and run barefeet,
The charms and beauty never counted, not for me.

You wanted me to change, and be another man?
You could not find a life of peace on what I had?
You want certifications to self validate?
You say am insecure, but my beliefs are safe.

You wanted me to change, and play another roll?
You got it; now I took you out of my own world
You think you couldn’t handle me the way I was?
How fun that now my change, won’t handle you right back.

Your killing indecision killed me bit by bit.
You say what fits you best; you know I tried my best.
You wanted heaven signals? Take this one right now,
The hope of one could die if you don’t feed the love.

Your dream upon a star, have finally become true,
I changed under this all, and I did change for good,
My love is pure, the anguish goes, my life has a new mood
And after plenty change, I lost my dreams of you.

I need you to see me,
I want you to hug me
I need you to be there,
Unleash all am holding.
I need you to walk,
In this lone road am walking
And then help me preach
The secret am holding.

I just don’t want to be alone
(But am alone)
I don’t want to be on top
(But neither holed…)
I did not need you
To wash up my clothes,
(No…)

I neither seek
Someone to serve
my coffee,
Despite mistakes,
Life’s been good
And I keep on
(So that must mean
That I am not looking
For mentors)

Am good at cooking,
You should try my dishes,
My house keeps clean,
(Though sometimes
It needs fixes)
And I have my phone,
My domain and my emails,
There’s communication,
(Though, off course,
With some limits)

Learned about wrinkles
The gravity and white hair,
Metabolism has guilt
In my wreck ness,
Fountain of youth hides
Within our own spirit,
(So am making clear:
You don’t have to be Britney)

This afternoon,
I had a chat with Sun
It’s been a long time
That we haven’t spoken
I told him fiercy
Did you let us down?
Did you turned your back,
And cease from being shown?
The rain has come,
The soil is moist,
The hope is drowned,
Some abandoned…
You went apart,
I didn’t see,
What i should have
Now am in tears…
Sun had a coffee,
As he heard my voice,
He was so patient,
So distant and close…
He saw the news
And he read about her,
Dive on the websites,
Checked up the mail.
Before he went,
He said “I am fine,
Thank you for asking,
And giving out time
I think life’s better
When out of your planet
Thanks for the coffee,
I’ll see you soon somewhere”
He stroked my head
My hair turned gold,
And gifted me the sunset,
That am watching now…

Said “I love you”
And then shaked the grownd
Said “I love you”
The walls came down,
Said “I love you”
And the ships did sink
In an ocean filled of…
Hopes and tears.
Said “I love you”
And the curtains went,
And the show begins,
And I ws so afraid.
Said “I love you”
And it was unique,
The world below me
I was the king.
Said I love you,
And I chose move next,
To conquer a land,
To settle a nest.
Said “I love you”
I confess I pranked,
Said “I love you”
She said “No, thanks”.

Sometimes it feels like
I gotta keep hope,
Sometimes its clear that
I better freeze cold.
Some days one feels like
Am victim of them
Sometimes its me,
Who did not do fair…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

Some day, any how,
Am going to find the missing piece,
To solve the blues,
It might not be the one I think

Life’s secuences of curse and bliss,
Of highs and lows, eternal risks,
Is there a sense on live to tell?
When there is no one that gives a damn?

As the days do go by
And our latest goodbye
Gets to heights and start flying…
Part of me wonders why,
Did not work on this time,
Can’t conceive what is happening…

Sometimes it feels like
Its quite my fault,
Sometimes its clear that
You caused it all
Some days one feels like
We both go wrong,
There are also flavors,
When guilt is gone…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

As the nights do go by
And my pillow’s stands by
How does a human cope with solitude?
When you give all then
You loose it all then,
How much can one bear whistling this looser tune?

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.
But it’s never been killed
It beats hard and strong.

Am the lucky cursed
Am the shiny crap
Am the free in prison,
Am the bright less star,
Am the one that envies,
Those I use to give,
Plenty for all those,
But seems to lack for me
Am the blessed who’s punished
Am proudly deceived,
Am the naked covered,
The spot and the sheet
Am the sense in madness,
A crazy who thinks,
If nor hot or cold,
Someone’s puking me.

What hurts this time,
If this isn’t just that new?
What suffocates now,
If you had breath long before?

What do you tear?
If all the liquid is gone,
For you have been dehydrated,
For some chapters before?

She’s alright;
She might have coped now;
Renewed her life,
Maybe someone’s ‘round

She was so calmed down,
And always focused
She understood
Pain’s something pointless

How much you think on
What she’s been doing?
How much you check mail
Seeking for some her?

How much your cell phone,
For wished messages?
How much a hue for
Something that’s missing?

Am falling,
For I fell In love
Am falling deep down
In a twisted hole

Am falling
From skyscrapers
And am scared of seeing that ground
I might end death

Get back to you!
Don’t be afraid!
You already know your monsters
Already there

Get back to you!
Seek for the light,
Keep moving your weakened wings til
Until you fly!

Get a new love, how about you?
Get a new hope, how about hue?
Get a new goal, how about dreams?
Get a new sky, for broken wings.

How much to take in this business?
How much to pay in this crisis?
Unsuccessful episodes
Of love got me displeased

How much can I keep this love
Remaining bright and still possible?
How much to dig seeking treasures
That turn out fake and combustible?

How much to ask things like those
Crying like a baby in punishment?
Showing how feeble I am;
A celebration of funerals?

How much more fantasies done
And then wake up from daydreaming?
How much perfectly, almost, but
Impossible for one difference?

How much to take in this business?
How much to pay in this crisis?
How much shall I swim like fish
In a filthy sea full of feces?

I want to get frail on my feebleness
Flying freely far from feeling angry
Shall I stop thinking on diss F-Words?
Is there sense on let them knock me?

Is time to move forward;
And it doesn’t spell with U
It is without U,
As my life without U

Am coming in nakedness,
In this trial to you
And I don’t like my bareness,
Not a bit, not at all
And I feel like exposed,
Showing I lack your hue
But this is what I do have;
This is all I can hold

I just cannot take
The skin off of myself
I can’t take this tattoo out,
Am so sorry. I guess,
I cannot ban the ghoulness
Of how upset I am
Of the bleeding that flows,
When I open my chest

I want to take out
Everything I got,
Feels so empty inside,
Being so full of that
Some of them never look
Over my hurting scares and
Cannot take what I am,
For I chain up their paths.

I guess I can’t come out of the Shell that I am
The skin that does wrap me,
And binds me a path
Can’t you see how messed up,
How dysfunctional am?
Can’t you see how I hurt her,
And she damaged me back?

I will love you always,
This my heart stops beating,
I have nowhere to run,
And no one else can listen
From the skyscraper heights,
Closed my eyes and am falling
Falling into your love,
Falling into your baggage.

A paralyzed man
Staring at the T.V.
Over a cracked couch
Barely moves and blinks

A pause into time
A queue of rest and breaks
Furtively wishing death
Crushed on a breathless bliss

Why did that have to turn?
How could a drained heart bleed?
How to become again?
How to rebuild the bridge?

A still and sad man
A bunch of attached dreams
The curtains of what he lacks,
Detachment all there is

Will the cracked soul mend up?
Now that iceberg melts and heats
The doubts of me trying to trust
Fighting my giant fears.