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Signal

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Peering, D|Termination, D|Toxified, D|Votion on November 13, 2008 by D

I can’t tell you what exactly is going to be of me
I can’t tell if am gwein make it, or if I will cease
This is so hard, so confusing, that it’s all a mess,
But with the lesson of this heart break, somehow I can tell…

That I might change pretty much, become my opposite,
I could become the man that you want me to be,
And change my points of view you could think of on life
And be the family man you always dreamed and wished

I’d sing those boring lovesongs those I hate for me
I’d even fix my issues that I still don’t fix,
But as the change is comming I can tell for sure
My love for you’d be gone, for you belittled me.

Don’t need to change that much, babe, I can tell you that
Don’t even need my night to end, or walk that far
A man did chase affection walking on his knees,
But couldn’t fit the roll you wanted me to keep

The clothes you want for me to wear are way too tight
Therefore the ones I wished for you are wide and hang
We better keep our nakedness, and run barefeet,
The charms and beauty never counted, not for me.

You wanted me to change, and be another man?
You could not find a life of peace on what I had?
You want certifications to self validate?
You say am insecure, but my beliefs are safe.

You wanted me to change, and play another roll?
You got it; now I took you out of my own world
You think you couldn’t handle me the way I was?
How fun that now my change, won’t handle you right back.

Your killing indecision killed me bit by bit.
You say what fits you best; you know I tried my best.
You wanted heaven signals? Take this one right now,
The hope of one could die if you don’t feed the love.

Your dream upon a star, have finally become true,
I changed under this all, and I did change for good,
My love is pure, the anguish goes, my life has a new mood
And after plenty change, I lost my dreams of you.

Do/Don’t

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Enunciation, D|Peering, D|Sire on November 13, 2008 by D

I need you to see me,
I want you to hug me
I need you to be there,
Unleash all am holding.
I need you to walk,
In this lone road am walking
And then help me preach
The secret am holding.

I just don’t want to be alone
(But am alone)
I don’t want to be on top
(But neither holed…)
I did not need you
To wash up my clothes,
(No…)

I neither seek
Someone to serve
my coffee,
Despite mistakes,
Life’s been good
And I keep on
(So that must mean
That I am not looking
For mentors)

Am good at cooking,
You should try my dishes,
My house keeps clean,
(Though sometimes
It needs fixes)
And I have my phone,
My domain and my emails,
There’s communication,
(Though, off course,
With some limits)

Learned about wrinkles
The gravity and white hair,
Metabolism has guilt
In my wreck ness,
Fountain of youth hides
Within our own spirit,
(So am making clear:
You don’t have to be Britney)

Be(Eats)

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Mented, D|Termination, D|Toxified, D|X-Is-Tense on September 24, 2008 by D

Sometimes it feels like
I gotta keep hope,
Sometimes its clear that
I better freeze cold.
Some days one feels like
Am victim of them
Sometimes its me,
Who did not do fair…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

Some day, any how,
Am going to find the missing piece,
To solve the blues,
It might not be the one I think

Life’s secuences of curse and bliss,
Of highs and lows, eternal risks,
Is there a sense on live to tell?
When there is no one that gives a damn?

As the days do go by
And our latest goodbye
Gets to heights and start flying…
Part of me wonders why,
Did not work on this time,
Can’t conceive what is happening…

Sometimes it feels like
Its quite my fault,
Sometimes its clear that
You caused it all
Some days one feels like
We both go wrong,
There are also flavors,
When guilt is gone…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

As the nights do go by
And my pillow’s stands by
How does a human cope with solitude?
When you give all then
You loose it all then,
How much can one bear whistling this looser tune?

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.
But it’s never been killed
It beats hard and strong.

Am|Be|Valiant

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Mented, D|Termination, D|Toxified on September 24, 2008 by D

Am the lucky cursed
Am the shiny crap
Am the free in prison,
Am the bright less star,
Am the one that envies,
Those I use to give,
Plenty for all those,
But seems to lack for me
Am the blessed who’s punished
Am proudly deceived,
Am the naked covered,
The spot and the sheet
Am the sense in madness,
A crazy who thinks,
If nor hot or cold,
Someone’s puking me.

(Resistance)

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Enunciation, D|Peering on August 7, 2008 by D

You just can’t wait to be patient
Can’t stand I can’t tolerate
I think you are not meditating
You don’t believe in my faith.

The moral’s switched the standards
Our world became the big ring,
The fighters, those seeking units,
Against the ones who wants split.

Tell me where are we right now babe?
Am I somewhere in this ship?
Or am I drawning myself in
A cold lake, starting to freeze?

Am floating, flying by,
And you seem so far by now,
I think I cannot love you
Without distance.

You silently watch me far,
You think I don’t know that
You mumble that you love me
(In resistance…)

The peek in your life is waiting
Reached by dreams made of steam,
Contradictory goals confronting
Your heart won’t give up, rather freeze

Am wearing your shoes, am worried
Why you look so scared at me
If am not the one to fullfilll you
How come you got closer to me?

I think we are just lonesome inside and
Two lonely ones don’t match well
And you must me much more alone,
You said you want more in this shell

Then am floating, flying by,
And you seem so far by now,
I think I cannot love you
Without distance.

You silently watch me far,
You think I don’t know that
You mumble that you love me
(In resistance…)

Yes, am hurt, pain is hard,
I don’t think
you should go thru it,
Obvious;
But am free at the fact,
That I said what I had
My mouth didn’t held back
Saying love you

Then am floating, flying by,
And you seem so far by now,
I think I cannot love you
Without distance.

You silently watch me far,
You think I don’t know that
You mumble that you love me
(In resistance…)

Not2

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Enunciation, D|Mented, D|Peering, D|Sire on August 6, 2008 by D

If you used me
If you lied to me
If you cheated
You attacked me
If you’re smiling
Then you’re stabbing…
Give me a reason not to fear you
Give me a reason not to fear you

And in my hand I have this big gun
The bullets of hope have been shooted all
What do I have to stand up again?
How in the life could I have defense?

If this twists me
If this slaps me
If your presence
Always got me
If am falling,
After falling..
Give me a reason not to fear you
Give me a reason not to fear you

And in my hand I had this big heart
Smashed in bits, I can’t mend it back
What do I to believe again?
How in life could I get some faith?

If I love you
And am weakened
If my wishes
Are so hearted…
If you hold me
Then you hang me
Give me a reason not to fear you
Give me a reason not to fear you

Love’s like a diamond, a precious thing
With many faces, and styles within
And my diamong has not romance
Many faces, but not her glance…

Give me a reason not to fear you
Give me a reason not to fear you

Morphless

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|All|Phen, D|Mented, D|Peering, D|Sire on April 1, 2008 by D

If we never started…
If we go nowhere…
If there’s no description
For this relationship
If there are no answers
And there is no choice…
Are we having nothing?
Nothing feels like this?

If I never hear you
Neither you can see
Not a kiss to taste thou
I can’t smell your breeze
None of us is sensing
Touch of fingertips…
How come we sense something?
Nothing feels like this?

If this has no height
And no width, no shape
And now way it weights
We can’t trace no depth
If this has no texture,
To define it real…
How come something virtual
Became some much real?

If I do not have you
And you don’t own me…
We are not even close so…
We can never meet
If we never joint our lips
On a tender kiss…
How come we’re so close though?
Is this love, my dear?

If this is no way joyful
Nor completely grief…
If we do not want let go
But refuse to keep
If we no way flying,
But then, never land…
How can something morphless
Join your soul and mine?

Telepathy

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|All|Phen, D|Mented, D|Peering, D|Sire on March 11, 2008 by D

I look in my mailbox, am looking for you
When I hear my songs, am thinking of you
Am thinking somehow things are going to change
That we still have chance, that we have a chance…
I look in my blog, for a comment of you,
For a sight of life, any type of clue…
A dim that infuses a whisper of hope,
That this was a nightmare, that I will cope

And I know that begging won’t fit on your game
You won’t reconsider the difference we kept
Why did I believe? Why did I keep hope?
Why do I still think like we’re still going on?
Does it happen to you? Do we meet thru our minds?
Do we both keep a hope our thing still goes on?
Do we feel like no breeze can chill out with this warmth?
Do you feel like we worth it? Can you read my heart?

Does it make any sense writing something for you?
That you won’t even read, for you are distant and blue?
Let your children know, the brief history of me
Of a crazy who loved you from distance and still,
Had affection enough, to melt up, to break down,
Cause our breakup was hard, tell them we could go on…
Tell them that our mistake was allowing to dream,
And find out that when different, the dreams also split,
And remind us when broke that we should have kept locked,
That sometimes hope’s an enemy, that burdens the soul.

And you said we were similar…
I bet you changed your mind…
I bet you’re thinking different,
I bet we’ll nevermind

Hug

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Enunciation, D|Peering, D|Sire, D|X-Is-Tense on January 18, 2008 by D

Drop the counseling words
Quit the advices that work
4 Eye’ve tried everythin’,
N’ my soul’s still in weep

All need is 2…

Smoke the pipe of the peace
With some1 willing 2
But if U seek for calm,
So U never had war…

Who’s goin’smoke it with?

It already begun,
Like an illness inside
My death process is on,
Eye can’t grasp the thing off

Who’s going bury me?

N’ life has lead me 2 the point of understand
That some of us can’t have the + of company…
Sometimes Eye feel like tradin’ the wisdom that Eye had
4 some1 there, who could understand, the twistedness on mine

Drop the depths, and the thoughts
Eye don’t think Eye need words
4 Eye’ve tried everythin’
N’ am asking just 1 thin’

All Eye need is a Hug

Looser Song

Posted in D|Agnosis, D|Mented, D|Peering on January 11, 2008 by D

They say
When you face darkness, light is near
When you loose something, then you win
When you hide something, then it shows

I made my mind
I win at loosing
I guess they are right,
I win at loosing
Am crying mad,
But I win at loosing…
Damn I’ve won so much…
Damn it… so much.

They say
When you get humbled, then you’re spotted
When you forget yourself, they remind
When you stop searching, it appears..

I know its hard, but
I win at loosing
Am getting dried, but
I win at loosing
Silently loud,
I win at loosing…
Damn I’ve won so much…
Damn it… so much.

They claim
When you don’t own it, then it sticks
When you feel coward, then you are brave,
And when you don’t lack it, then you get.

As weird as sounds
I win at loosing
Just look beyond
I win at loosing
Your love is gone…
I win at loosing…
Damn I’ve won so much…
Damn it… so much.